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Michael the Melon and Andrew the Angel.

on August 15, 2012
Today has been an extraordinary day indeed.
August the 14th is the anniversary of my step-father’s death. He was a very special man to me…what you would call a true gentleman from the old school era. Something of a rarity these days. He treated my mum like a princess and took on board my sister and I, unconditionally as part of the package. I miss him so much and wish he was here for me to tell him just how much I loved him. I can only hope he knows. This morning, one of the therapists called Lorna took me into the garden and we planted a melon plant in memory of Michael. I chose melon because Michael used to take me, my mum, sister and Nanny to Spain on holiday each year, and I loved parma ham and melon. Now there is a little piece of him here with me in California. I hope ‘Michael the Melon’ will grow and thrive, just as I hope I will grow strong and healthy in my recovery. I will nurture him, make sure he is fed, watered and loved.
 
The second special thing that happened today, is something that I will never EVER forget. Tuesday’s are lunch outing days, where we get to practice eating out in a restaurant and being ’normal’. I find it really difficult to eat food where I cannot control the portion and content. My anxiety was high and I was feeling very sad about Michael. This is typically where I use my eating disorder to help me deal with the pain. I continue to carry a lot of guilt about Michael, and I have used my anorexia as a way to punish myself for all the regrets I have. Anna was so kind and helped me to choose something on the menu, but when it was came to the table, I was overwhelmed and got upset. She took me outside to calm down, and what happened next is nothing short of a miracle.
 
From out of nowhere, this young boy with braces, holding a skateboard came up to me and said:
 
“No matter what is happening to you right now and no matter what you are feeling, it will get better. I am 13 years old and have been suicidal. I am on medication and see three therapists, but I am OK. I saw you upset and I couldn’t walk by without saying something to you”.
 
I asked him his name and gave him a hug. Andrew will never really know how much of a difference he made to me. His words sent shivers through both Anna and I. It was as though he was an angel that had been sent to help me at that moment in time. He was only 13, yet had the courage to approach a total stranger and share his experience. What a truly remarkable young boy Andrew is. It was extra special to share it with Anna too, who told me that in her entire 12 years of working at the clinic, this had been the most memorable and amazing moment of all her time here.
 
I went back into the restaurant and continued to eat my meal, but this time I felt as though the next bite, might not be quite as difficult as the one before.
 
I have been truly blessed to of received these gifts today. 
 
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10 responses to “Michael the Melon and Andrew the Angel.

  1. Muriel says:

    You are truly being looked after Laura. What a lovely thing to do for Michael. He thought the world of you all and he knew you cared. What a wonderful experience with that brave young man. I am sure you will experience many special things whilst out there. I look forward to each blog and to know you are slowly reaching your goal. Take care and lots of love x

  2. Peta says:

    That is absolutely amazing and beautiful. You are being looked after and cared for by something my darling, as you absolutely deserve to be. Wishing you all the best, and continued strength in your journey out there.
    All my love
    P xxx

  3. Sandra White says:

    How amazing and wonderful. We are surrounded by angels – we call them friends; and they care for us and love us and only want the very best for us.

    We also have angels we can’t see; and they are by our side, willing us on when the going gets tough. Just call on them to give you a helping hand and they will be there in the blink of an eye.

    Love and huge hugs
    Sandra xx

  4. lola0224 says:

    Wishing you many good days in your recovery. Thank you for sharing this experience with us all.

  5. Rebecca says:

    What a wonderful experience. You are clearly in the right place. With so much help and support, together with your own strength, you will definitely come out of this with health and the power and tools to really live.

    We’re all rooting for you and sending you lots of love.

    Rebecca. xxx

  6. Miranda says:

    Gosh how amazing. What a very special thing to have happened. You are doing so well. I am so proud.. and they sound like they are really taking good care of you. Huge love xx

  7. Claire Daly says:

    An amazing story Laura. Thanks for sharing it.xxx

  8. Liz Orford says:

    Make sure you feed and water and nurture yourself in the same way you nurture Michael – that’s what he would want for you. Love you blister xxxxxx

  9. Jacqui says:

    Wow a truly amazing moment for you and so positive.. I love melon too and Michael is looking down feeling extremely proud I’m sure of it! Love you heaps xx

  10. Lou says:

    Michael the melon!!!! That will make him chuckle…look after michael the melon as u must yourself darling lots of love xxxx

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